My Jackson.

I remember very clearly when I found out I was pregnant at 15 years old. I was absolutely terrified and I didn't want to tell a soul.

I was certain it was a girl. When I had my first ultrasound on September 15th, 2006.. I saw a little pecker and was so shocked that I was going to be the Mom to a wild little boy. :)

I became excited quickly, especially because now that I had told everyone, they all got to become excited with me.

A short month later, on October 19th.. I went into labor.

This little boy was ready to come out and be the saver of his Momma's life.

He couldn't wait to be my pride and joy and bring me the happiness that my life so badly needed.

I was mistreated that year of my life, and I'm sure he knew it.

On October 23rd, I got to put my big shaky hands on the smallest little child I had ever laid eyes on.

I remember having a lump in my throat as tears just welled up in my eyes.

I was a little girl, and there was my new baby boy. That tiny baby was going to depend on me to take care and love him for the rest of his life... 

6 years later, that tiny little 3 pound baby is sprawled out in my bed at 7:00am. 

Why, you ask?

Well last night he chose to sleep on the couch. The cartoons had shut off automatically and Marcus forgot to leave a night light on... so at some point last night, a little voice came in and said- 

"Mommy, my heart is beeping so fast. I had a nightmare. I can't remember it, I just woke up and my heart was beeping really fast out there."

He climbed in between us and the three of us cuddled all night long. 

Times like these are the times I cherish so very much.

in 6 more years, I don't think Jackson will want to climb into bed with me and cuddle after a bad dream.

He'll nearly be a teenager!

*pause*

WHOA.

It not only made my heart tender for my sweet baby, but it made me love Marcus so much more. 

I had to move a little bit and Jackson thought I was getting up so he grabbed my arm, Marcus just held him and told him "Jax, everything is okay. Nothing is going to happen to you. I've got ya buddy." and kissed him on the forehead. 

I couldn't ask for anything more. 

Jackson fills our home with so much excitement, laughter, chaos and love.

As does my other sweet baby. :)

And I'm so happy that Marcus is {happily} a part of that.

He is pure enjoyment. I'm so blessed to be his Mommy!

Not to mention, he is the best big brother in the whole wide world. :)

On a funnier note.

Last night we all went to the chinese restaurant for dinner. It was pretty late when we got home so the baby hit the sack right away. Marc, Jax, and I were sitting in the living room when Jackson stands up in front of us and says, with the absolute most serious look on his face-

"Ugh my butt hurts REALLY bad. I've been shaking it too much and it's so sore!"

Hahahaha. What. The. Heck?

We were rolling on the floor. 

He even did this little shake movement as he said it. 

Oh my gosh. 5 year olds kill me. 

I can't believe how quickly time flies.

In just a couple of months he will be turning {6}, right before that, our newest baby boy will arrive, and shortly after that, my sweet girl will be {2}. 

CRAZY!!!!