A mind getaway.

I am sure whoever is reading this is getting sick of the debbie downer posts... but my mind is stuck. I hate it. I have good mornings, good afternoons, and good nights. Just not all together. But I'm trying. :)

The weekend was a good time.

Friday night this Mama went swimming with an old friend. I haven't been swimming in years, mostly because I feel so uncomfortable in a swim suit... but hey, I am not trying to impress anyone. Just tryin' to make myself happy. SO I went and bought a swim suit, and I had such a good time! I'm glad I got over it and went.

Saturday I woke up early and hung out with the kiddos! I love them two. They are sooo wonderful in my life. :) We drove to Clearfield to pick Grandma up. Jax was an onery little stinker. & Jentri was soo sick of the car. She was whining and Jax says "JENTRI! Quit crying and grow up!!" LOL. I know it's mean but I couldn't help but laugh. Little meanie... ;)

Jax had to go back to his Dad's house so Jentri and I got ready and went to the Derby. I figured she'd take a nap... nope! She was awake and happy the whole time! She got lovin's from lots of people. I got to see the lovely Lizzly and Jud, Lani, Tina, Tara, and the whole fam... :) & lots of others. I love small town/county events like that. You run into everyone. Anastyn held Jentri for a while and Jentri just melted right into her. Cutest little thing. Future baby sitter. :)






Saturday night, Jentri went and had a sleep over with her brother. He thinks it's the best thing in the world to have her sleep over at his Dad's with him.

Jess and I joined some friends and hiked up Settlement Canyon. The gates close so we parked at the entrance and walked, which seemed like FOREVER! It was probably only a couple of miles. Lol. I felt like a young, care free, teenager... and it was nice. We sat and talked around a fire, tried to cross a creek which didn't end to well... Haha... and on our way back down Lukey and I laid in the middle of the road and looked at the stars. It was such a fun night. It ended with lots of laughs, drinks, and good ol' conversations.







Then I woke up and was an adult again. :) Lol. Sunday was spent being lazy with the kiddos and Jess.



That's when I get thinking about my life, and the loneliness and sadness comes across me again. I am sick of feeling this way... I have so many amazing people by my side, but I still feel all alone. But I am grateful to have a best friend and two kids that are here to make my heart smile no matter what... Love these people sooo much.