Blank.

Yesterday was hard.

Wish I could just make this feeling go away.

I just feel lonely, and empty, and just blank.

One on top of the other just digs a deeper hole.

I just want to be over it... over everything.

I'm trying so hard to just cover it and carry on...

but my heart hurts.
It's hurt for years and years.
It all started when my Dad passed away.
11 years and 4 months ago.

I've never been able to fully deal with that.
& I think that, and everything and everyone that has hurt me since then

is finally catching up.

I'm confused.

I don't know where this life is going...

It seems like every person that I've let into my life
has shot me half way to the moon, then abandoned me.

It's hard for me to understand why.

--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

I need to make some goals and actually work to accomplish them.

I need that positive boost of confidence in my life.

These negative thoughts and feelings are killin' me.

I'm going craaaaazy over here.

& a screaming baby -24/7 - isn't doing much help. :/