Change.

"Berk took pieces of me. Little by little. I gave him those pieces because I loved him and wanted to be what he wanted me to be. One day I was Yang, then I woke up and didn't recognize the person staring back at me in the mirror."

Guys take pieces little by little and we change it cuz we think "Ohhh it's just a little thing." But then eventually we've changed soo much for someone and we didn't even realize it. And the only reason we're even noticing this is because they're unappreciative, and you feel like you're being taken for granted. You're unhappy.

Change can be good. I understand that when you are with someone you love, you change. It's natural. But aren't there men out there that change with you... that grow with you... that love you the way you are and help you become an even better you? I know there are.

I figured something out today..

I wrote in an earlier post about things being hard for me... wondering what is wrong with me and why relationships won't work out... or why I'm not being the lover that I used to be... And it's because I'm stronger than I used to be. I'm not the girl I was before. I used to let the men in my life dictate my happiness. I don't anymore.

I'm happy with me. I love who I am. The men I am meeting up with obviously aren't the right ones. I know one day someone will come along and love me for me. They will love the words I can speak, and the silence that I hold. They will love my random giggles about nothing and when I take a million pictures. And every other imperfect flaw and beautiful thing about me.

But for now, I'm okay with just being me. Just me and my babies.

I have soo much more to see, and feel, and learn...

and I am in no hurry. :)