It's there. Forever, always, and no matter what.

I'm a little pissed off.

But the last post, I was extremely heated.

So here I am... in a little bit more lightened mood. Sharing my feelings to the world since no one else wants to just listen.

I'm twenty years old. Sounds extremely young, eh? I'm an adult. I am a mother. I'm a grown woman. I have a job, and I pay for my bills with the money I make. I cook dinner, and sometimes I just eat popcorn. I splurge and let my son drink Dr.Pepper sometimes. I hate doing laundry, sometimes I throw a load in, sometimes I let it pile up until I have no clean panties left. I always have clean bottles. And my kids never wear dirty clothes. I always think I know what's really going on, and later find that I was mistaken. I let people take advantage of my feelings, and I may take advantage of theirs. I don't believe in revenge, two wrongs don't make a right. Why would you intentionally hurt someone just because they accidentily hurt you? No.Sense. I brush my teeth in the mornings, and usually at night. I dread driving 100 miles a day to work and back, but I enjoy being able to take my daughter along with me. I struggle. I stumble. I feel pain. And I pretend I don't have a heart.

But guess what?

I do. No matter how much I don't want to feel, I will anyway.

And for all of the decisions I make, or ideas I have for my life, I don't want to hear what you think I should do instead.

All I have ever wanted was to be accepted by you.

To just be good enough for you.

But time and time again, you have shown that I can never satisy you and I'll never meet your expectations.