It's right.

Life is SO good right now but I don't have much to write. Haha.

I suck at blogging... pooh.

A lil recap on the past week- eh?

Last weekend was new years! Everyone makes such a big deal out of the change.. and it's cool. But people don't realize that it's YOU that has to change, not the time.. if you do the same things you did last year, this year is going to be the exact same.

I spent the day with my kiddos. We went to Wingers and had lunch. Yummm in my tum. Around 8 they went to Jackson's Dad's house. Can't tell you the difficulty of spending holiday's without your kids... it BLOWS. But they had fun. And my night was alright with my lady friends. M went out without me.. boom. Dog house. Haha jk.

The bad part of the last day of 2011 was that my FURNACE went out. Holy. Shit. It was soo cold. My babies and I were just cuddles up in the blankets---freezing. That's mostly why they went with Jackson's Dad. I felt so helpless. There was nothing I could do. I was so worried about how much it was going to cost to fix it, but it was an ice chest in there and I couldn't let my kids sit in it! Sunday night I found some electric heaters that kept the house pretty warm and finally got someone to come out on Monday morning. Thank GOD!

Saturday/Sunday was an eye opener.. it made me realize how good I really have it right now. I feel so very lucky to have what I do. I'm happy. True to the bone. 

"Happiness often sneaks in through doors you didn't even know you left open."

Right before I met Marcus, I remember sitting there thinking...

"This is life. I've become so content and satisfied with my life style. I can't imagine it being any other way. I'm finally happy. I'm alright on my own. I don't need more than this." And it was true. It came from my heart. It was MY life and I was happy with myself and everything around me. Then all of a sudden... Bam. There's someone here to share our lives with each other. And it's amazing.

I'm 100% me, he's 100% him, and we're 100% us.

I never looked at life and love the way I do now. For the first time ever... I trust what I'm doing. I trust that God has a plan for my life. The past haunts me all. the. time. But I will never let it affect my choices or my attitude ever again. Yeah, times can be hard but what matters most is how I deal with it. A lot of relationships don't work out because people become insecure, jealous, envious, and I'm sure you all could name many more things.. and I remember when I was all of those.. so doubtful about everything. Thinking about all of the things that could possibly go wrong instead of the happiness and right things going on right in front of my eyes.

It's a really peaceful thing to be able to recognize the way I was before and the way that I am now. If it weren't for all of my past happenings.. I wouldn't be the person that I am now. And Marcus and I wouldn't be so understanding and ready for what we have. I never believed in the mushy gushy stuff- I mean, I'm a pretty emotional/spiritual person and my feelings are really strong for life/love/everything else. But of all the things I've ever known.. nothing compares to this. Ya know? It's like, when ya know.. you just know. Life just feels right. :)

Even Jentri thinks so. :)

and Jax..

that kid always has a good attitude.

I am missing him so dang much right now but he'll be home soon

and it's going to be good.

I love my bubba.

He has it kinda rough.. but he still brightens my days like no one else can.

"I'm afraid you'll have to suffer

through some of my mistakes

 but Lord knows that

I'll be trying to give you what it takes.."

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I am amazed. By my feelings. By my kids. By him.

Simply amazed by life.

And the way it just surprises you when you least expect it.

♥