Night Terror

A while back I wrote about Jackson having nightmares. Read about that here. I never dealt with nightmares before and it made me so sad to see him frightened. Well anyway... he doesn't wake up having bad dreams anymore. But me.. yeah, different story.

It's really hard to explain my dreams. I still have a normal one every night- I remember it vividly. But it's only after I wake up from a horrifying one. And the horrifying one is the same type of dream EVERY time. It's so strange to me.

The dream is simple and goes just like this-

I go to bed, whether it's my own home or I still live with my Mom, it varies. I turn the light out and start to fall asleep when an evil spirit/ghost starts trying to get me. Whatever it is trying to "get" me, weighs me down to where I can't move or open my eyes but I am awake and aware that something is happening. After feeling like I've tried to move for 10 minutes, I finally wake up.
It seems SO real.
When the dreams first started happening, I was so afraid that there really was an evil spirit after me. I pray constantly about it but the feeling kind of never eases. It's creepy. And I wish they would just stop.

It's not just the dreams that make me think that.
Weird stuff happens around my house all the time.
I grew up in the house I live in now, and everyone that has known our home, knows it's haunted. My Mom swears it's a good ghost because nothing bad ever happened when she lived there. But I feel something totally different. I always question what I could have done to piss it off... because I just know it isn't my Dad (or any other loved one, for that matter!).
My lamp flickers on and off. Jentri's book flips open and closed, making the little rhyme sound. I hear creeking footsteps. Feel weird presences. One time my cupboards kept opening. I went in the kitchen 3 times and shut the same two cupboards, when I finally was like... what the hell is going on here? So I shut it- made sure... and yet again, it was open.
It's mostly just those creepy dreams that feel so real that make me scared.

Ugh... stupid dreams.
I'm going to try some melatonin. Everyone says that will help me sleep.
Lets hope so because I'm kind of tired of the 3 hour sleep nights. Literally, tired.