Simple. Little. Joys.

"For every time I cried over something stupid you did to hurt me... yeah, I forgive you. I forgive me. Now, do I start to feel again? If I hate you, what does that do.. So I breathe in and count to ten. The damage is done, and I forgive you."

You know that feeling... That feeling that there is just a deep dark pit in your stomach... where the back of your throat aches from holding tears back because you don't want anyone (not even yourself) to know that you're really hurting? I've felt that way for a long time. I've been thinking about it a lot lately and I think that I've come to see that I've been holding grudges. Unnecessary grudges. Yes, you've betrayed me. Yes, you did the unexpected. But no matter how bad the situation is, if you don't let go, you'll never move on from it. The past is passed and I obviously no longer want it to be a part of my life... so here I am today... Forgiving the people that made my heart ache. And letting go of the people that continue to do so...