Day 9;

Nine things you would like to say to nine people.

Thank you for thinking I'm the most beautiful girl in the world. Your witty personality, your loving heart, and your kindness for everyone around you makes me so proud to be your Mama. I love you to the stars and back.

Your happy little soul is what keeps me moving. It reminds me that life is good, no matter who or what you have. You've made me a stronger person, just by letting me care for you. I love you my little Taluula.

I hate when you make me feel not good enough. But even though it hurts, I know you love me and just want the best life for your baby and grandbabies. Thank you for being my only support. Thank you for being my best friend and holding me up through lifes hard times. I love you so much.

I stare at your pictures constantly. I miss your personality, I miss how real you would be in front of anything and anyone. I imagine you tickling my babies with your whiskers. I wish they could hear that silly voice of yours and dance around the living room with you on Sunday mornings. I love and miss you more than words could say.

You came from left field and hit me hard. Having someone like you in my life at this time was completely unexpected but is just so perfect. The way we connect is incredible. You've become so important to me and you make me feel important to you. I feel lucky to have you and I am looking forward to the future we will create. :)

You made my heart hurt. You pissed me off. You make my stomach sick and my mind dizzy. But most of all, you're missing out. You will never get these moments back.

Thank you for seeing past my mistakes, imperfections, and scars... and trusting me enough to care for two of the most amazing babies. I am blessed beyond reason. I know that you know I am giving my all. I am trying. Thank you for giving me these chances.

I hope that I cross your mind once in a while and I hope that you've forgiven me for what I did. I hope that hurt didn't carry into your current situation and I really hope it doesn't play a factor in your choices. I know you are smart, and I hope you consider all before you make a choice like this. Thank you for the time you gave me. Sorry for how it went. Nothing will compare.

This is my life. Just because it's different than how you wanted it to be, doesn't mean it's wrong. Quit thinking you're so much better than me. We're equal. You do your thing, I'll do mine, and there shouldn't be anything between that.