Let them be little.

Today Jackson brought in his bucket with some torn leaves in it and asked me if I'd fill it up with water for his sand box, so I did. Then I handed it to him and said "Don't get too dirty k!" Before he could walk away I said "Actually.. get dirty all you want. Tell me MOM, I'M A LITTLE BOY AND LITTLE BOYS GET DIRTY" So he told me and walked away to put the water in his sand box.
All day I have been thinking how I want my son to have a childhood to remember. I want him to get dirty and have as much fun as he wants to! What's it gonna hurt? The water bill because he takes so many baths? I want to cherish this one little boy that I get to bath every night, and scrub the dry sand out of his hair and in between his little piggy toes.
The neighbor had the hose outside and was squirting his little boy, Timmy. Jackson ran in the house and squealed with delight: "MOOOM! Can I go get 'prayed'?!" So today, of course, I said yes. And the sad thing is.. Most of the time I would say no, irrigation water is caca. Sad, right? Brandon yelled over, "hey! I'm gettin your kid wet!" He was probably expecting me to get upset about it but instead I just yelled back, "That's okay, he can have fun." And that he did. Came home in dripping wet levi shorts and his dripping wet t-shirt in his hands with a big ol' grin on his cute little face.
We crawled into bed tonight and he asked if we could watch a movie.. well, because we do every night. So tonight I suggested instead of watching a movie, lets just cuddle and talk. He was more than happy to do so. He put his little tiny hand on my belly and asked why Jentri is kicking this late, I told him she was just letting us know that it's time for bed. :) He loves to tell stories and about his 'dreams', so on he went about how his Dad went crazy and threw him in the ocean. Haha. I asked him if it was real or just a dream, he assured me it was just a dream. "That's The End!" He always says. He wrapped his little arms around my neck and next thing I know he's fast asleep.
I took today into my heart and I will hold it there forever. I wish I would do that every day because time is flying so fast and in the blink of an eye he will be graduating school and moving out and getting married and such&such. I am so grateful to have such an amazing little thing in my life, I couldn't ask for more. Only 18 weeks and there will be another little baby here getting some attention. I don't know about all you mommies to 2+ but it's a tear jerker thinking about how all the attention you've given your first born for the last 4 years is simply going to be cut in half. And I know it will be just as great and I will get double the amazement by these little ones.. but right now, I just want to keep little Jentri in my belly. Let her kick and dance away while I snuggle with my favorite little man and let him tell me about all of his dreams.

"I can remember when you fit in the palm of my hand
Felt so good in it, no bigger than a minute
How it amazes me, you're changing with every blink
Faster than a flower blooms they grow up all too soon

So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

I've never felt so much in one little tender touch
I live for those kisses, prayers and your wishes
Now that you're teaching me things only a child can see
Every night while we're on our knees all I ask is please

Let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little

So innocent, a precious soul, you turn around
It's time to let them go

So let them be little 'cause they're only that way for a while
Give them hope, give them praise, give them love every day
Let them cry, let them giggle, let them sleep in the middle
Oh just let them be little"